“Give me understanding, that I may observe Your law And keep it with all my heart. Make me walk in the path of Your commandments, For I delight in it.” (34-35)
The psalmist gets that it’s not enough to want to do better. I’m reminded of Paul’s “that which I don’t want to do, I do” speech in Romans 7.
“But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good. So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me.” (Romans 7:16-17)
I groan with him, “Who will save me from this body of this death?” Thank you Jesus!
I’m forever brought back to humility and dependence. Jesus is faithfully bringing me back to this place. I want to make Him proud, by independently doing the right thing, in my own strength, but not only is it impossible, it’s not what He wants.
How can I know what is right? How can I know I’m doing a good thing? We all have seasons when we question even the goodness of God, the source of all goodness, purity, light and love, so why do I ever credit myself with good judgement?
I am dependent on Him for instruction. I am dependent on Him for understanding. I am dependent on Him for the will to obey. “Make me walk in the path of Your commandments.”
Thank you Father for your good Law, will, commands, insights, designs and pursuit in love.
Thank you Jesus for modeling perfect humility and obedience (Philippians 2:5-8), while also making a way for our freedom from sin and death.
Thank you Holy Spirit for being our advocate and teacher, empowering us to obey as Christ Jesus did.
I keep getting drawn back to John 15; Jesus’ description of Himself as the vine and us as the branches: Dependent. “Focus on your connection to me. Look at me. Live here. Abide.” That’s how fruit is bore, when I’m not even looking and striving for it. When I’m depending on Him for everything.